Maybe because... erm... School's starting? Not for ME of course, but I have COMMITED to several starting type activities, so I am falling into that boat, too.
I have some beliefs about anxiety dreams, and I am going to share them with you.
Why They Happen
A mind with too much to keep track of decides to torture us further by ensuring our SLEEP is not restful and we never get a chance to recover. Aren't minds evil? And here I was SURE I was only naughty.
So I need to deal with how much I have to deal with, on top of dealing with what I have to deal with. Is this the definition of SUCK or what?
I can't come up with any biological benefit whatsoever of these dreams, unless, like a drug addict, my body is craving adrenaline, which is possible. Though honestly, I'd prefer I dreamed I injured myself and got a nice dose of endorphines. Natural pain killer would be pretty sweet about now.
Anxiety and Writing
Not happening. Anxiety saps creative juices FAST. Why do you think writing and QUERYING go together so badly? FORTUNATELY, writing and EDITING seem to get along pretty well. They are the obnoxious people you invite to the party who are making embarrassing gestures in the corner and nobody wants to be near, but after the party, they are all anyone wants to talk about. Happy people are so much less memorable than the paranoid or the twitchy.
So Anxiety, DO YOUR WORST! I can take you! (provided I get to call the venue, and I am calling the pudding pool, or wrestling).
How does a person HANDLE anxiety?
DUH! By making LISTS!!!!
Oh, I know, lists are fun, and anxiety isn't supposed to be fun, but this is my party, so there.
THE FREAKING GRANT
Finish the data merge
Analyze THAT data
Hire students for the year
Get those three papers written (ouch—this means I'm behind)
Keep up with the recruiting *yaks hairball*
To Do: KIDS
Find money to cover checks
Money (that I don't have) into school lunch accounts
Get daughter to daily doubles for Hill Week (Swimming)
Read the paperwork that DIDN'T need to go back
Finish laundry (is this EVER done?)
Clean cat box
Update spyware on both computers
Find basement floor
Do single mom makes dinner thing (hubby has Tuesday night class)
To Do: Writing
Finish first edits Chapters
Enter first edits 12-21
Work in BIG edits
Get book to first set of 'full book' readers
Print out book on one of young minions for beta reading
Buy tissues for said book, as I have some idea what to expect
Catch up on blog reading.
To Do: Eating/Fitness
COUNT POINTS COUNT POINTS COUNT POINTS
Assessment of cupboards for foods that would make this all easier
A little meditation and that acupressure thing to get in the ZONE.
I guess my only effective method of dealing with anxiety is head on. That is why the lists sort of work. How about all of you? Anyone have any secret tricks besides denial?
And GOOD LUCK to any of you starting new endeavors for the school year!